Color Creator

Okay.

Okay.

Tonight was awesome.

You guys who read fairly often... all my problems about my sex drive or whatever the crap I was talking about? Yeah, I don't have a problem anymore.

I love everything.

♥

I really know how to make myself feel depressed right before bed. Way to go, self.

This shit has to stop sooner or later. I'm hoping sooner. But now I have, on top of everything else, the stupid dark cloud of my being a "dumb American" hanging over me again. It makes me feel like I wouldn't be able to travel and meet new people without the fear of being judged like that right away, for stupid things done by other people I don't know.

Huh.

I got my first real dose of people hating on the one "kink" I really have.

It hasn't been helping any of my problems lately. I've been feeling gross and broken and weird due to some overwhelming emotions and frequently being a polar opposite to several people I know, so having another helping of people saying "eww" isn't doing any good.

This is an interesting feeling. I actually feel like a freak for it now.

I guess that's how it's supposed to be, though, right?

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/31726640/ns/politics-more_politics/

Fuck, this is why I love people like him.

http://twitter.com/jeffgoldblumok

A+ sense of humor, would lol again.

I love getting a nice punch in the stomach before bed.

Lovely to know what people really think of me and what I do, y'know? I think I'll just... back off for a while, then. I don't want to make things any worse than I probably already have.

In other, more positive news, my vacation's getting closer! Though I'm feeling a little anxious now.

Nnn. Bed.

Alternate title: THANK GOD GENO IS FUCKING COMPLETE.

I feel like my arm is going to drop off, and my back is going to disintegrate at any moment, but I think all of my work paid off.

( Don't you? )

If you're still here after seeing the main attraction, here's a kitty.



This is my newest cat, and I call him Scoot. Mom calls him "New Guy" and dad calls him "Fingers" (FNGrs - Fuckin' New Guy - it's an air force thing, I think). He likes to sit on laps and drool, and I prodded him once while I was laying down and he decided to camp out on my butt. He was warm. He's a longhair cat; the first one I've ever owned. We shaved him a few months ago to help him with hairballs, and we're going to do so again when it gets long enough. He's a little bit of a bully, but still sweet.

Lastly, the most recent picture of moi. I was at the Bellagio with my folks after we'd gone to the very delicious buffet they have there. There's snow and king crab legs on Fridays!

Here's hoping the buildup of math doesn't kill me tomorrow!

My brother showed me this before, and it's still great.

http://goatpox.livejournal.com/43899.html

Did you really have to do that, Bay?

Really?

I feel like I'm becoming one of those people who tells everyone to stop having fun, but some things just need to be said. Rife with spoilers.

( Here begins the tale of a jilted robot lover. )

With all of that out of my system, I'm going to bed. I'll be dreaming of the real Sideswipe, thanks.

Not a lot to show for my last few weeks, cos of the end of school and now being bent over and raped bombarded by my new summer math course, but here's a set of three doodles.



Done in iScribble
I'm definitely not a master of lineless coloring, but for a first-ever shot at Metaknight, I think this didn't turn out too horrifying. His feet still bother me, though. Not too sure what's going on with his empty glove there, either. He's got some kind of lobster claw action going on, or whatever. I wish I hadn't started in the corner, so I could've finished his sword. Dangit.



Done in OpenCanvas 1.1
Oh my god Geno is so fun to draw. A bugger at first but then it turned into THIS IS REALLY GREAT. I loved doing the wood grains on him, and it was a bitch finding a decent ref picture, so some of this is obviously the fault of my taking some artistic liberties. However, I seem to draw him well enough, because tacster002 says I draw him "crazy good," and she's the one who got me into the game.

I plan on making plushies of both Geno and Metaknight sometime this summer, or at least sometime this year, too. That'll be fun. ♥



Also done in iScribble
Though my furry days are over, I do have Sisko here floating around for whenever I feel like drawing her and indulging in a little bit of cartoon animal fun. I made some minor changes to her, so instead of a rabbit-y look to her head and ears, she's more mouse-ish. The mouse inspiration came from The Secret of NIMH and an old nickname that my mom used to use for me, "Castle Mouse." Heh.

So there you go. I'll have more art soon, I hope. Now off to play more vidya, because Brawl is like crack.

Tell the world how they have stolen their election.
Keep updated, stay educated.

Hey look at that! It's my 200th LJ entry! Er, well, of the ones that're surviving, anyway,

I spent the last hour or two putting together one huge FUCKTON of a list of all of the vidya I've owned and/or played enough to finish/nearly finish over the years. It was oddly satisfying, I must say. Turns out I've played more Mario games than I ever really thought I did, and didn't remember till now, among other things. I also found out that I have never, in my entire freaking gaming life, played any decent chunks of some rather iconic vidya series, such as those involving Kirby.

I know.

Hopefully some of this will be fixed sooner than later, as I have friends to help me out with a few of those glaring vacant spots. I believe at least one of the Wario games will be shoved into that hole, as well. I also reeeally want to play SMRPG: Legend of the Seven Stars.

Stupid Geno. I blame tacster002.

For those of you brave enough, I have included the mighty beast.

( Read on if you dare. )

Jesus fuck that's a big list. I'm sure there's more that I can't remember at the time, but I'll be adding to this occasionally when the thought hits me. Watch me remember some really important one right off the bat.

Edit: Already I forgot Psychonauts on the list, which Pook reminded me of. If you guys remember talking to me about a game you don't see on this list, totally feel free to tell me! I want to make this list as complete as I can.

I found my computer's restore disc, and I am now in the process of putting my previous setup back together. The only thing I need to figure out how to do now is get all my crap off of my external harddrive and put back on this newly reconfigured som'bitch. After that, life will be peachy.

Glorious, glorious sound. ♥

Edit: Found out how! Moving it all over is a wonderful thing, friends.

Edit 2: Hey, can anyone help me get a good quality mp3 of the song I have under what I'm listening to? Been trying, but it's hard.

http://www.dowagiacnews.com/articles/2009/06/06/columnists/dncolumn04.txt

Say it with me, folks: Pixar is serious business.

http://www.malepregnancy.com/science/

Can we stop trying to make it possible for men to be pregnant? Please? It's fucking gross.

There are few things that seriously, honestly disgust me beyond words, but men actually being pregnant is one of them. I... ugh. Just disgusting.

So, people.

Of all of you out there who have siblings, did you ever feel like your parents were playing favorites with you? You know how they'd say things like "oh, don't compare you and (x)!" "you're like apples and oranges!" Ever get that?

I wanna know if I'm the only one who's had this kinda thing happen to them! Were you the favorite, and did you see or NOT see what was happening to your siblings? Or were you the one that got the shaft?

Share!

Question time!

How fine is the line between loving someone, and being in love with someone?

How do you guys tell when you've crossed that line? The thought crossed my mind randomly, and I thought I'd ask you all. I do like to hear other peoples' views on things like this! They can be quite fascinating.

On top of all the weird shit going on in my life, I think I'm losing my sex drive or something.

I still think things are hot, yeah, but... I've not been properly turned on in a long, long time. I haven't masturbated in many months, and when I attempted to tonight, it was only out of excitement of buying my new stuff. There wasn't really any motivation to do much at all, even after I laughed off my mistake of rushing.

Real nice.

Maybe there's more digging I need to do? I dunno. I can't really say I like sex, since I've never had it myself, and it sure does look gross at times. But then there's the whole thing about being super close to someone with it, but eh. I dunno if I wanna go through the damn trouble right now. People getting hurt all the time and worrying about STDs and pregnancy and all that extra crap... I think even little things like crushes are too much for me, let alone the pressure of being asked to fuck someone.

It's possible that it's just society that makes me think I have to or something. So deeply involved in the whole thing that I'm not listening to myself. Hell, weird enough things have gone on these past couple weeks, I'm not sure if another one on the list would be all that strange.

More confusion, yay!

http://personalgaming.blogspot.com/2009/06/e3-2009-metroid-other-m-trailer.html

Well shit, did I predict the future or something?

Hnnn.

So gay for this whole damn series, oh my god.